Yes, it is amazing what I have done Not to feel the errors of my way or thoughts. People have told me many times that I was Running.
I had a conversation with my son and we got into a very heated discussion about his behavior and about my past behavior with him and family members. After getting off the phone. I have to admit I was angry and upset with my son. The more I thought of the conversation the one thing that kept coming up was, he believes I ran… a lot. I believe to some extent that he is probably right, but how is it possible to stay when no one hears you or even sees you?
When I started on my healing journey, I did that for me, I knew I needed to heal and I needed help, so who did I ask? I asked God to help me and I put all my trust in God. Yes, I have come a long way, I also know I have a ways to go, still. I do get tired and want this journey to be over, but I will keep going.
I also know that everybody is running to stop from feeling and healing and that is true of my Son. He chooses not to see it. I accept that because I know he Will heal when He is ready, just like the rest of us. I had a clear choice that day to achieve Inner Peace and I will continue too. I have a lot of good days and some hard days about seeing myself and healing but I am Not running. When I see I have made an error in thinking or action (just recently, Ugh) I do look and question my actions and thoughts and ask WHY and to be shone, that is the only way to heal myself and always with the grace of God and Holy Spirit as I travel to remembering who I really am along with my Sisters and Brothers. I Am running to …my Holy Self and to God. On the way I have shared what I have learned and how I am able to heal. I want all of us to return Home. The work has to be done through…. Forgiveness
Whether we chose alcohol, drugs, sex, displaced anger, lying or projection, it is still avoidance of feeling the pain within. I tell you with truth, If you allowed yourself to feel and acknowledge the pain in that moment, you will start the process of healing and be well rewarded with freedom and to feel joy again.
I felt a lot growing up, unfortunately I chose to attack and then walk away or move. I did not know that all I had to do was to acknowledge and try to see it differently, then breathe through it. I do now. I share what I have learned. We are all healing our multible personalities one at a time to get to our real self.
To allow ourselves to feel Joy, Love, God is, after all, what we all want. To love as God Loves all as God Loves you.
Journey well Brothers and Sisters. All my Love Angelina.