Summer started out hot in the Southwest, up to 111 degrees in Sedona, Az. Then maintained the high 90’s after that and the bugs were just awful!!!!!! Being outside in the evening or just before sunrise and after was horrendous. knats, cedar knats, no-seeums and mosquitos were brutal this summer. Then there were the sunsets and the sunrises, with the beautiful colors, especially after or just before a monsoon came through. Ahhh, the colors were …. We had double rainbows and single rainbows that were spectacular. Thunderstorms that came were sometimes harsh and magnificent at the same time. Some thunderstorms appeared out of nowhere and then many times the storms passed right bye, thinking for sure with all the thunder and lighting we would get a downpour any second and then, they vanished in the wink of an eye, Amazing…. I absolutely love living in the Southwest.
That is the way it is living here in Az. You never know when something is going to come up. This summer has proven to be intense, God, I would have thought I’d gotten farther along on this healing path. But, no. I started to feel really good about myself. I was doing Tai Chi, dropping weight, seeing somebody, in general, feeling happy. So what do I do? I let the ego in and start to listen to it. I created a script in head and not only did I hurt myself, I hurt others and I starting eating like no tomorrow. Geez…I have been doing healing work on myself for 26 yrs and I still get stuck.. That is the power of the ego. It’s funny, I just remembered that spirit showed me how the ego gets in and takes over earlier in the summer. How could I have forgotten???? Ugh..
So, now I am in the mist of repairing the damage to myself and others. I don’t know if I can repair one. I have spoken to the person twice and I just don’t know. When you let the ego go wild you have to sometimes accept the consequences of your behavior. I am deeply sadden by this turn of events. I love this person deeply .
I have grown, but, I have a lot to learn. Now, when a thought comes through, I say to myself, “I surrender to the power of God’s Love. It helps me to move through the error in my thinking and I soon release the thought. I have to be constantly vigilant in this area because it happens in a blink of an eye. Wtih God’s grace I do go. I pray for my healing as I do yours. Be ever of the vigilant of ego. Chose to recognize the Ego’s destructive power at the start and save yourself Grief. The important realization that I learned was, I sabotage myself when I feel happy and good about myself. I am healing this error in thinking as if it is the Last thing I do…..
Journey well my Brothers and Sisters. Lots of love to you always. Angelina